New Found Psyche.. thanks Brandon =)

i did it... i am done with my 1,000 hours requirement for my cosmetology license on Wednesday December 30,2009. My expected gradated date is estimated to be Jan 6, but through diligence and hard work I've managed to finish ahead of schedule :: thumbs up ::. For this i should to give myself a pat on the shoulder! :: pats shoulder::

Since the day of 2010 New year I have been actively job searched and rub some elbows with some generous connections that can help me get where i want to be. Although i must admit, since my classes ended it has been quite the challenge to push myself out of bed to put myself out there for fate to serve me justice.

like most fresh cosmetology grads i had a brief mentality that i should take a "little break" ..like lets say a week..? two weeks? some said to me " why not take a month's break? you have your whole life to work right?"

then i thought about My family, my extended family.. i thought about Brandon and most importantly .. I thought about me. i should never listen to non other than my own heart, my heart is telling... screaming to me "this is the time, here is your chance, take this energy and run, jump, leap into what belongs to you!! right now !!!"

so then my journey starts.. so far i've gone on two interviews, one with Frederic Fekkai, the other MIZU .. it has been a little nerve wrecking interviewing with such amazingly talented hair stylists. fantasizing that perhaps one day, i will join such a prestigious team on the floor.

being out there, interviewing with them i never realizd how much courage i needed to steadily look into their eyes and try to sell myself. The amount of dicipline, professionalism, and beauty i must carry to convince them that " yes, you want to train me, yes i can be a valuable asset to you"

since the first interview, i cannot believe how much i was shaking (literally shaking) before their presence ( they must be laughing at me from the inside i'm sure) but.... i did the best i can, be as graceful as i can. i just pray to GOD someone will fancy my enthusiasm, my spirit, and my determination.

Brandon told me, fortune favors the determined ones ( not his exact words, but close enough), if that is so i want to keep fighting, keep waking up and do whatever i can, if luck or fortune happends to miss me (i surely hope it doesnt !!) i should give myself credit for waking up every morning, doing what i needed to do, to know that i am doing my part and my best each and every day.

Brandon has taught me in every moment of his being to never forget my dreams, to never let go of my inner treasures, to never stop fighting, to hold on, KEEP HOLDING on. he has inspired me to do what i fear, to say the words i may choke on, to go up to the stars and say " hey... i can be one of you, i can shine just as bright, or perhaps even brighter", he has taught me courage, faith and above all .. love.

Brandon also encouraged me to start bloggin again.. this time.. about my journey from the very beginning, to personally witness in word context of my growth, also to never lose sight of myself, what i am now and what i will become...

here's to all of us, the start of a new decade, the rebirth of a new self, i really hope this year will be better for all of us.

change will come, we can all be happier in the words of Anna Nalick in one of favorite song " Shine"----

" And I think you need to stop following misery’s lead
Shine away shine away shine away
Isn’t it time you got over how fragile you are
We’re all waiting ....
Waiting on your supernova
Cause that’s who you are
And you’ve only begun to shine"

i hope we shine so bright.. We blind everything ..haha.

P.S.... i will be having a second interviews with MIZU and Fekkai on next Tuesday 1/12, time to shine !