Boss and Ebichu.. We love you.

a month ago our little Ebichu died..
then last night my little Boss died... it was awful and she was so sick and infected.
Brandon had to do what i couldn't do.. that is to put her out of her misery, for all our sake i wont discuss how.

you know .. it is just awful .. when you see something even as a little pet die, although you see it coming somehow it is still awful. It really makes you wonder how fragile life is. i am in no condition ..ready for another hamster.. Brandon and i always felt that we didn't take care of them enough.. perhaps we didn't give them enough attention as we thought.. maybe we weren't ready for to take care of small creatures..

in the light of Boss's passing, i was prompted to research a little more about hamsters.
it is recorded that the oldest living hamster was 2 yrs old.. in captivity
HOWEVER.. a hamster can live much longer than that in the wild. In that case i may not adopt another hamster.. or if we do, we must be extremely diligent... but even with diligence.. nothing can avoid the gloom of death.

The weather today matched our mood perfectly. Dark, gloomy and rainy. we also planned on burying her today.
i know this feeling will pass, but i cannot shake this feeling of sadness wrapped around my heart for my little girls.  i cannot seem to shake these lingering tears in my eyes for them..

we love you, our little girls.. Boss and Ebichu Rest in Peace.