when I was 10 Years old i had an odd dream, to this day i remembered every single detail. at the time i had Just met my Ex best friend Mandy.
as i grew older i see it unfold to me as reality played itself out to what it seems like another trick my mind is playing on me.
I was showering one day, i turned around to reach for the soap and suddenly a boy appeared in my shower. he looked like a regular boy, except that he was blue.. almost glowing blue.
He startled me but not so much that it caused me to scream. i felt calm around him even though i was stark naked and so was he.
"who are you, and what are you doing here" i asked calmly feeling no fear.
"i.. i was looking for you. I've found you" he said holding out his arms to hug me.
"I'm showering" stating the obvious "can i show you around later?
he watched me, almost like an angel. i felt perfectly safe. he touched me with the soft caress of his fingertips. he constantly stood beside me, he stood close enough for me to feel the warmth of his body.
Later, i took him to school to introduce him to my best friend.
in my dream my best friend had long straight dark hair, like a ghost she walks silently with me. i have always felt uncomfortable with her.
she took an interest to my Blue mate, soon she grew attached.
"Shelly, i'm in love with him. i want him, i dont care what i have to do, i WILL have him for myself" she threatened gripping my wrist.
i remember feeling pain. she gripped me so hard it felt so real.
days went by she continued to haunt me. what seemed like a sweet dream turned into a nightmare. i was continuing to feel pain from this girl. she tortured me Physically.. and mentally.
but i refused to give up. he .. was my love. i felt love.
one day, as blue boy was nursing a wound i received from the girl he turned to me and said " I cant take this anymore"
"what?" i asked
"this, i cant do this anymore, i cannot bear to see you hurt, why wont you just hand me over?" he said.
" Never! i will never give up on you!" i shouted ( im certain that i shouted in my sleep)
"i think.. i think i'll go to her" he said looking at his feet tears forming the corner.
" no !! " I plead tears overflowed my eyes " you cant do this to me !! you cant!!" my knees began to give into the weight, begging him to stay.
"promise you'll remember me" he said putting his hand over my eyes.
"NO !!" i shouted again "NO !!"
..then there was darkness..
then.. i saw a glimpse of her back.. and his back. she gripped his hand hard. she turned back slightly to give me a mocking smirk, then dissapeared into the dark with him.
i walked home, broken hearted. the pain in my chest was unbearable. i felt as if i was suffocating.. in my dream.
when i got home, i climb up to my room. it was completely empty. the window was slightly opened blowing soft wind into the room.
there was a red box right in the middle of the room. i walked over and saw a piece of folded paper, it writes "To Shelly"
i opened the letter, tears flowing wildly from my eyes.
it reads..
"I Love You"
I woke up, drenched in sweat. suddenly there were pain in my chest, my heart still felt the lingering sorrow. I started to cry heavily until i fell back to sleep.
it has been 13 years since i had that dream.. it's quite odd that almost all the boys i've dated in high school all dated my best friend afterwards. she has hurt me countless times, until finally she physically hurt me.
it hasnt dawn on me how similar my experiences resembled my dream until last month.. i hard this song "Don't Dream it's over" by crowded house.
i checked their album cover.. and lost my breath.
the Album cover is the art above this blog.
the name of the album.. is called "Reoccurring Dream"
as i grew older i see it unfold to me as reality played itself out to what it seems like another trick my mind is playing on me.
I was showering one day, i turned around to reach for the soap and suddenly a boy appeared in my shower. he looked like a regular boy, except that he was blue.. almost glowing blue.
He startled me but not so much that it caused me to scream. i felt calm around him even though i was stark naked and so was he.
"who are you, and what are you doing here" i asked calmly feeling no fear.
"i.. i was looking for you. I've found you" he said holding out his arms to hug me.
"I'm showering" stating the obvious "can i show you around later?
he watched me, almost like an angel. i felt perfectly safe. he touched me with the soft caress of his fingertips. he constantly stood beside me, he stood close enough for me to feel the warmth of his body.
Later, i took him to school to introduce him to my best friend.
in my dream my best friend had long straight dark hair, like a ghost she walks silently with me. i have always felt uncomfortable with her.
she took an interest to my Blue mate, soon she grew attached.
"Shelly, i'm in love with him. i want him, i dont care what i have to do, i WILL have him for myself" she threatened gripping my wrist.
i remember feeling pain. she gripped me so hard it felt so real.
days went by she continued to haunt me. what seemed like a sweet dream turned into a nightmare. i was continuing to feel pain from this girl. she tortured me Physically.. and mentally.
but i refused to give up. he .. was my love. i felt love.
one day, as blue boy was nursing a wound i received from the girl he turned to me and said " I cant take this anymore"
"what?" i asked
"this, i cant do this anymore, i cannot bear to see you hurt, why wont you just hand me over?" he said.
" Never! i will never give up on you!" i shouted ( im certain that i shouted in my sleep)
"i think.. i think i'll go to her" he said looking at his feet tears forming the corner.
" no !! " I plead tears overflowed my eyes " you cant do this to me !! you cant!!" my knees began to give into the weight, begging him to stay.
"promise you'll remember me" he said putting his hand over my eyes.
"NO !!" i shouted again "NO !!"
..then there was darkness..
then.. i saw a glimpse of her back.. and his back. she gripped his hand hard. she turned back slightly to give me a mocking smirk, then dissapeared into the dark with him.
i walked home, broken hearted. the pain in my chest was unbearable. i felt as if i was suffocating.. in my dream.
when i got home, i climb up to my room. it was completely empty. the window was slightly opened blowing soft wind into the room.
there was a red box right in the middle of the room. i walked over and saw a piece of folded paper, it writes "To Shelly"
i opened the letter, tears flowing wildly from my eyes.
it reads..
"I Love You"
I woke up, drenched in sweat. suddenly there were pain in my chest, my heart still felt the lingering sorrow. I started to cry heavily until i fell back to sleep.
it has been 13 years since i had that dream.. it's quite odd that almost all the boys i've dated in high school all dated my best friend afterwards. she has hurt me countless times, until finally she physically hurt me.
it hasnt dawn on me how similar my experiences resembled my dream until last month.. i hard this song "Don't Dream it's over" by crowded house.
i checked their album cover.. and lost my breath.
the Album cover is the art above this blog.
the name of the album.. is called "Reoccurring Dream"
It's amazing about dreams. Your dreams are always so fascinating to me! My dreams are way too juvenile! But nonetheless, dreams scare me too when they are a reflection of things that might have happened or things that happened because then it's like okay...this is in some way connected to our lives for real and not just some conjecture. I used to have my little dream diary, but then I stopped believing that they meant anything when I realized the world sucked. LOL jk!
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