when I started to enroll in Cosmetology school back in June, i thought i would be alright since i have some money saved up. Going out to pick up a skill was a wonderful idea. i was simply excited.
here i am ..half way to my certification exam, and im scared..scared because i've been unemployed for so long, scared because i feel helpless. scared because i have to rely on Brandon so much. Granted, i am collecting some unemployment, although the money is little, it has help tremendously. because of my helpless feelings, sometimes i just want to drop everything and find any job i can... but that is not a good idea.. i cant give up now..
every single day i have to talk some courage into my heart. i felt selfish most of the time because here i am.. enjoying this new found career ..while Brandon suffers his job to support both of us.
i borrowed so much money from family and Brandon just so i can do this, i can't be discouraged now because of my fears... i can't let them down..i cant let myself down.. i must find strength to move on and finish.
of course, at the moment I'm terrified..
but i must have faith...
....scared? yes i am.
But .. there is no other way..
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